Beloved, I have heard the cries of your heart. Because of your recent tragedy you are now calling out to me. You have been asking where am I? But beloved, I pardon, where were you when I tried to call you unto me (Luke 5:32)? In bitter weeping I cried out to you to turn from your wicked ways. Where were you when I needed you to do my will? You turned your back on me when I tried to awake you at dawn to intercede in prayer? When I needed you to visit the sick you went out partying instead. When I called you to fast you celebrated in feasting and revelry. When I spoke to you through a homeless person; I begged you for food, yet you rose up in anger, called me a bum and told me to get a job. I commanded you to love, yet you walk in unforgiveness and judgment towards your earthly sisters and brothers (Mark 12:31). My heart bleeds at the arrogance and pride toward your fellow man. Instead of fellowshipping with me you watch TV or consume your time with friends. My child you take more pleasure in your worldly accomplishments and material possessions. Instead of bowing down to worship me you worship your car, house and job. Instead of me being the love of your life you have put a higher priority on romantic relationships. Don’t you know that the love I have for you is everlasting (John 3:16)? You have made these things the God of your life. You have pushed me aside for the pleasures and enticement of this world. Yet when tragedy happens you say where is my God? I then say I never knew you (Matthew 7:23)! Why do you call me ‘Lord, Lord’, and not do the things which I say (Luke 6:46)? How right Isaiah was when he prophesied about you! You are hypocrites; you honor me with your words, but your heart is really far away from me (Mark 7:6).
Now because of this great disaster in your life you want to accuse me of not being a loving God, a faithful God, or a merciful God. I clearly warned you to stay away from idolatry, homosexuality, and perversion (Exodus 20:1-17). I am the same yesterday, today and forever more, (Hebrews 13:8) my words do not change. Have you not learned from the children of Israel? (Deu 11:26-28). And now that this bereavement has come upon you, you cry out to me in desperation. Haven’t I told you in Romans 14:11 that every knee shall bow before me, and every tongue will confess that I am God? Yet in your own self-reliance you cursed me and told the world that there is no God. You turned many souls away from me into the hands of my enemy. I now ask, are you willing to repent and seek me as the Lord of your life or do you just want me to fix this immediate problem? “Help me just one more time, this time I promise to serve you,” you have cried out to me before. Are you now willing to turn away from your rebelliousness and willful sin? Beloved, will you now pick up your cross and follow me? (1Peter 4:2,3)
The lover of your soul,
Jesus Christ
